fake a smile.

i always fake a smile infront of your all i tried to act nothing happen at all even that i can feel you all dislike me..i know! i can feel ok? just tell me if you all dont want me to be friends with me..dont talk behind me! dont keep secret from me! you all wont know how i feel cause your are not me..sometimes i ask myself..why? why am i such a failure?!..it doesnt mean if i know you like 9 fucking years you will treat me as your family or bestfriend..no no NO! you dont! but i do! i really treat you as my brother! but why dont you give a damn on me?..i found out that even we know each other since we were born till now..is still useless cause u dont give a damn! we have no fate to be friends? or our fate reach the maximum already? till here?..i dont know...i wish i can go back in time even i know is not gonna happen..yeah so just tell me the fact if you all dont need a friend like me..


Rui De,

we were same class since form 2 is also when i 1st transfer to bu3 but we start getting closer at form 3 cause you are a very quiet guy form 2 that always like to sit at the corner and do your own stuff draw something you like (: you have 1 close friend too..but he try to use you to get over some girl i decided to tell you instead letting you get hurt innocently..and that day we started to get closer and closer..we hang out sometimes at ou and yum cha stuff..and end of the year of form 3 i started work at ou..you always come and look for me eat lunch with me and lepak for while i really miss that moment..and form 4 now you having some part time at ou..you work after school (hardworking) and i remember 1 day i really feel so stupid and idiot i do stupid stuff that even can end our friendship..i really so sorry! i just too "chung tung'...i am so sorry bro! i damn regret after that..but you did forgive me! what can i say? thanks bro for forgiving and fucked up so called friends like me..form5 is the year we got new friends transfer to our school and same class..is also the year you started to stay further from me. sorry bro and thanks also!



TK,

9 years brother is been 9 years we been brothers for 9 fucking years..i cherish this friendship alot! is kind of funny that how we know each other...we know each other in a swimming pool and we were swimming 1 day while i swimming with my cousin's and you with your cousin's you started bully my youngest cousin 1st dude! so i whack you up on the spot..after that is alright already~kids fight only ma..next day we meet again we play together haha but 1 day you started dint come down to my house for some times..we lost contact ): but nevermind when i transfer to bu3 a year form 2 you were same class as me! i was so suprise and happy (: your a nice guy always belanja me lunch and drinks..and we even use your motorcycle and VROOOooomm! behind the school gate it was fun ! damn fun ! and till now man i still treat you as my bro (: but you are leaving me ):



Lai Yew Wei aka Ikan Bilis,

you were kind of weird when you just transfer to bu3 the last year tho..you are quiet! but just for the few days and you return to your own form already! you are a funny guy always talk joke and things that make you roll on floor laugh like a mother fucker! come on man even is 7 months! i feel like 7 years (: we are close..we share secret! he is a trustfull person tho u can share secret with him! he work at sunway pyramid (: a very berdikari person work and raise himself..he got the same childhood hobby as me! that is...watching 'mask rider' movie! hey! althought is kind of childish now..but is cool kay? i like it..we joke and laugh together alots! and i even make him kena something before so sorry bro! pls forgive me! i know you still keeping inside your heart! i know you dont trust me already..i lost your trustworthy ):

you all are gonna soon leaving me..everything is gonna blew away.

i love you all.